mao mao

i don't feel quite myself these days. i've been journaling as other people. i've been getting into character, i've been trying to make myself laugh and weep. i've been writing down things i wouldn't say or maybe i would say. i've been closing my eyes and swishing towards the floor and breathing real real deep, i haven't been myself these days. i mean, i'm playing this character these days, all these characters, singing and shouting and whispering real soft like and learning and growing, this other person, really, i have been more myself these days.